Weary of Trouble

There are lots of promises in the Bible. One of them is this: "In this world you will have troubles, but take courage, I have overcome the world." Nothing terrible is happening, just normal stuff of the world that happens. I get tired, I get lonely, I get overwhelmed and underwhelmed by my life and I can't see ahead. The brilliance and beauty of what God has done and is doing in my life and some of the amazing things He's been sharing with me lately contrast so sharply with all of the stuff of this world, the menial details (and I'm not talking about the nice details that you put into stories for realism). 

I don't know.

I'm trusting that God does and that there is a reason why I don't. 

Right now, I'm just weary of trouble, and I want to go Home. But there is a reason that I'm still here, and everyday brings me closer to when I get to go Home for real. A little less than five weeks brings me home to Washington and starts off a new season. Summer. 

Summer scares me too. I know that God has plans, but for the first time in (well, okay, I've never not had plans) I don't have plans.

Usually, I say "little did she know" after I've already found out, but right now I know that I don't know. I hope to write an entry soon, triumphant, boasting in how little I knew and how God has moved.

Until then, I am fighting the world with God's help and trying to take it one step at a time. For now, that's all I got.