There is a month left to my summer. I longed for and dreaded this summer before it came and now I'm really having a hard time thinking about saying goodbye to it. 

You see, there are a lot of things that are hard about it. Waiting is tough, there has been (and will continue to be) a lot of that. 


There has been so much growth, so much of the new that I never expected. So many things that have caught me by surprise and continued to remind me (dare I say once and for all?) that there are NO coincidences. 

However, there are a lot of complications too. All of this growth and these relationships that I'm building make things messy. And lovely.

Honestly, if I had to pick, I would do it over again. Being here and experiencing these things is a privilege. Knowing these people and having these conversations represent experiences that I wouldn't trade for anything and that I will never forget. Ever. 

Once again, God knows what He is doing. I'm just trying to trust Him, stay positive and hang on.